battle

i'm about to walk,
he says let me tell you my last thought,
he speaks and i drift into a deep fog,
i get lost,
i forgot to hold on,
drifting deeper and deeper...

what i am doing?
will the mirror recognize me in the morning?
he holds a certain gesture when we're together
do you want it? do you want me?
and i can't tell whether this is reality,
could this truly be me?
my mind is telling me, don't give in.

my heart pounds faster... i think he might win.

tracks on my heart

tracks on my heart

you look at me through clouded eyes,
you know i see right through your lies

see the sky, see the stars,
all of this could have been ours,
out of sight, out of mind,
we've been through this a thousand times,

but you always turn your back and make me feel so helpless..
and now i wish that you meant something to somebody else.

but i love you.

release

release

the burning sensation rips down my throat,
but i don't cough or choke,
this is my release,
the one thing to put my mind at ease,
numbness seeks itself all around,
my heart starts to pound,

release, release, release.

and i'm numb now.

haunted

is it a dream? is it a nightmare?

i'm in the center of the city where all roads meet, waiting for you. i'm in the depths of the lake, where all my hopes have sank, searching for you. i'm moving through silence without motion, waiting for you. i'm here, searching for truth, searching for you.

just so you know, i'm still waiting for you.