tracks on my heart

tracks on my heart

you look at me through clouded eyes,
you know i see right through your lies

see the sky, see the stars,
all of this could have been ours,
out of sight, out of mind,
we've been through this a thousand times,

but you always turn your back and make me feel so helpless..
and now i wish that you meant something to somebody else.

but i love you.

release

release

the burning sensation rips down my throat,
but i don't cough or choke,
this is my release,
the one thing to put my mind at ease,
numbness seeks itself all around,
my heart starts to pound,

release, release, release.

and i'm numb now.

haunted

is it a dream? is it a nightmare?

i'm in the center of the city where all roads meet, waiting for you. i'm in the depths of the lake, where all my hopes have sank, searching for you. i'm moving through silence without motion, waiting for you. i'm here, searching for truth, searching for you.

just so you know, i'm still waiting for you.

torn by addiction

her past.

who can you trust? who can you love? when love kills like cupid with a gun.

his mouth so full of lies, tends to black your eyes. just keep them closed, keep praying, waiting. waiting for the one day that never comes when you stand and feel free again, but the bars still remain. and to think... love is a four letter word, never spoken here.



my present.

i've learned to run from anything uncomfortable. i've lied and kept the pain deep down and no one ever has to know that inside, i'm broken. i tried to patch my heart again, just to cut my tears and kill my fears...tell me where our time went, and if it was time well spent. just don't let me fall asleep feeling empty again.

if you thought i'd leave you're wrong because i won't stop holding on. this is an emergency, are you listening? i can't pretend i don't see this...

please don't get me wrong, i'll never let this go, but i can't find the words to let you know that i don't wanna be alone.. but now i feel like i don't know you. and i'm still thinking...

love is a four letter word
never spoken here.

veritas.

the memories of her past are breaking her down, she finds herself frozen no one around, she runs from all she ever knew, her present and her past, her escape was you but that didn't last,
now she sits alone in solitude, thinking of you and what she should do, her heart won't aligne with her mind, she thinks about the words you spoke all the time, she wonders if they were all lies, wonders if you were the devil in disguise...

tears run down from her eyes
and she breathes one word....

goodbye.